New journey

Started weight watchers. we'll see. Yesterday was my first day to get settled in and figure the site out and today was my first official 'weigh-in'. Well, that was depressing. I've gained significantly since my last logged weight in my scale back when I was training for a 5k and before I got in a relationship and before I hurt my knee. Kinda sucks that my initial weight loss will just be to return me to where I was last year when I was exercising to lose weight. Oh well, I've been kinda witchy lately and depressed so I'm looking forward to that return of happiness and feeling comfortable in my skin at most times. (Despite being way overweight I still have good self-esteem most days).


I'm somewhat thankful my job place is so diverse because there is a 40-something Haitian tech I work with named Smith and he's never been shy to point out a weight gain. It's devastating at the time but I know it's coming from a cultural/friendly place and not a malicious one when I really sit back to reflect it. Comments like those sting at first but in the end are constructive and not nagging. When I lose weight I may give him a thank you.

My boyfriend has been wildly supportive through all of this. He is attractive to girls of all sizes but wants me to be comfortable in my skin and live long and healthy. He's got some weight to lose too but nothing like I do. Really, if he just bumped his activity a little bit and felt better he doesn't even necessarily need to lose weight.